today is my dad's death anniversary....
so fast 1 yr has passed....
different feelings in this 1 yr..
sometimes i feel sad he is gone...
sometimes i feel happy cos he finally would not suffer anymore...
sometimes feel so regretted cos we just late by a few minutes to see him for the last time...
sometimes feel so lonely cos i got 1 less person to share my stories to....
sometimes feel so weird without my dad in the house....
sometimes feel so quiet without my dad disturbing me...
sometimes feel so useless.. cant seem to able to fulfil his wish for me...
i realise...
these are the feelings when someone close to u is gone forever......
upon knowing the fact that my dad had died,
i learnt that we really really must treasure the people around u...
not only that... but also care for them...
i know i learn it too late... although i always heard of it...
but at least i still got other people around me to treasure....
i must also learn to be more independent....
cant always ask my parents for money....
when i m alrdy a young adult...
they work hard for us...
but we take it for granted... like its a MUST to be given to us since we are their children...
that is how i thought before that...
after my dad is gone... den i know its the responsibility of the individual..
sometimes when our parents wanna hav a conversation with us...
we find it irritating or busy doing things...
but this is actually an opportunity to know more about each other..
and also to keep good memories of the family....
how i wish i can go back to the past...
The truth ranted;
1:37 PM